Hiraia of AruaRose

April 10th. It was a sunny Good Friday when i received a message i have already been expecting a long time ago. My characters got banned from the game and i know exactly why. I should say, leaving the game did not hurt this time because there is someone making me much more happier, but thanks to the game, because that's where i found him..

I started playing RoseOnline when i was still in good terms with my first boyfriend , back then game bacame our past time and bonding session, when i lost my job, game became my obsession, during the rocky times of my first relationship, my characters became my inspirations, in times of financial needs, zulie became my salvation. RoseOnline became a really great part of my life, i started living inside the game specially when i moved out of my parents house and lived with someone. Those agonizing years i was able to overcome because i get to talk to people ingame, those that i met and becase real friends with me, real-life friends.

Somewhere in cyberspace i've written a dedication for my first character when the Phil Server closed. http://mauieghurl.blog.friendster.com/2007/07/farewell-prose/ ..So this part is only reserved to my character/s in AruaRose, a private server Roseonline i have so loved.

Hira's first clan : Requiem (Aug 2007) i made a few friends there and i can still remember a few like Nona and his brother, i was graced by his buffs when i was still on my second job quest which back then was waaaaayy looooot harder to finish.

Hira's Second Clan. Memorable clanmates vbox and artisanmasteriLeSaMis : Hira's Third Clan: LeSamis, clan owned by Roy (Angelo) a friend from Zamboanga,it was my idea why this clan was made, i asked Roy to make our own clan and he did this counterpart of the Lesamis he created in Prose,the name is French which means "Friends" and the symbol is a flower (quite feminine eh..) he said that in Japan it means Youth. Consecutively, Youth means Power. Memorable characters here of course are edwin (elishacuthbert, archill3s) and nez's chars. (roznes,k1ngofdeath)

Gamma: Hira's Fourth Clan: headed by Josh and Lisa an American friend memorable chars are Isolde (lisa's cleric), Slayer (Aaron), iamLegend (josh's new char before i left). I could not find a solo pic back then here was the time when i was farming Astaroth King Wing in Luna CF, with my noob scout PrincessMau.

LastWish: Hira's Fifth Clan, it was a turning point for me joining this clan, i was already close to completing my gems and my set when i joined LW and Edwin the clan master that time was very nice to me being one of the Pinoy's in clan i was never discriminated whatsoever, this clan made me feel so much loved and the dutch friends i made here are superb..a few ign i can still recall during my stay in LW : Edwin (xThey,xUs) Arrie (xxHilarioxx), Mariaa (MarioPlasma), Rutger etc...

Rewind: Hira's 6th Clan. There's so much to say about this clan, my first ever clan that actually ruled the game and i was lucky enough to be with them during those times. Fun eventually stopped when the masters left the game out of boredome, clan was left to me and Mina's care which did not turn exactly right because Mina and i stopped talking due to some reasons i cant elaborate here.Summer of 2008 we started farming for out ONLY subclan .. xRewind, eventually made it 5th grade. Theres so much discussion here about my adventures in rewind, just check previous post if necessary.

DET- DontEvenTrip .. My Last Clan, Probably the coolest CM i met here, Jayt and the richest people ingame being with this clan was fun. Theres so much i wanted to say about my stay here that i cant think how to begin lol. Its the only clan i will ever join incase i come back playing, which in this case close to impossibility. DET is the reason why i logon to Aruaforums, i gained so many friends here also fell inlove here <3> Elisha quitted and i made a new character from the account which i named xHiRaIa. not long have gone, xHiRaia joined DET after i left my original cleric.

SweetHeart: my Own clan. After quitting from actively playing Rose, my boyfriend and i decided to quit and i made my own clan to serve as a home for all my characters so it would be easy to chat when i am online chilling with my BF.

i have two vendors ingame :Hirala and Apolla
Hirala vending

Apolla's Vends

KingArthurII was the very first noob edwin made for me so i can have a knight of my own farming warbiz. This picture was taken two weeks after Rewind became Grade5. It was also Edwin's First Time to see the Beach.

Dance : Doing nothing makes you insane in Arua so out of boredom here i started dancing and everyone else followed. pics would show im with Mairyel and Tetrode, clanmates from Rewind.

Rest : Its not all farming, i rest too and during breaks, i made it a point to put on a nice pose. Thats my cleric and my raider.

Farming Points: thats me and myra and lalaine posing while farming clan points for xRewind.

Warring : Farming clan points means war explicitly. I always bring Amaziah even in wars.

Clan Fun :Rewind was having fun posing here during our first few days farming cp for our subclan. Lina (PurpleKitty) was still present here.

Porch: Rewinds Claim, after grade 5 Rewind members would proudly AFK here in the Xita circle where everyone could see them wearing their Red Tag, Pimpy bikinis and shiny leet gears..back then people can just "Wow" over some things, lols..

Love in the Game : Since Rose bacame a very big part of my life i had been touched and moved by different persons here, those that influenced my gaming, those that changed me, and those that made lifelong impressions to me, ingame and in real life.. Hiraia loved ..

Hira and Intelasus

Hira and Angelo

Hira and Edwin

Hira and Jeiram

Nelo -
Look at his statements at the pic, it was meant as a joke because that time he was still my friend only and that time i was strying to help him make up with Kathz. Who would believe it will become real? lolol..

my Sig in forums

Unforgettable Friends

CocoRaia :)

Red Fashion: Edwin and Lalaine with Hira

My blog's winning article..My First Time in Oro: a memorable experience and i even have to tell everyone i know about it lol. i was really proud being an Aruan when Oro was launched. why? because its the first Oro launched ever! so i made an article about it here in this blogsite and i was even so much proud that when you google the word "Orlo or Planet Oro" its gonna be the first one. i also got a google score because of this article, hehehe. I even wrote to forums so they would try it.LOL (try it google it "planet oro") and see for yourself :)



Aruarose was superb, i had the bestest time there. It was fun till it lasted. Bye Arua, bye guys. I love you all. I have moved on Hiraia will have a new home :)..

Long Lost and Forgotten Blog : No More

Whaaaaaaaa.

So long, so freaking long I never visited my own space in cyberspace Rawwwwrr, I kinda miss it but there are some things I'm quite afraid to discuss publicly, unfortunately there are some things now that I learned, better kept to myself than explicitly said to others.. Oh well.. Please reserve me that privilege..

Oh I miss my blog, I think about it once in a while and think of how much I wanted everyone to know whats happening to me, and also after a few whiles to realize that its better to keep those things to myself, so today after reading Yen’s ( a friend from Arua) comment on my Forum Account and she said that she read my blog, I finally came to senses and was overwhelmed that I started writing as soon as I get the chance.. So just to have a few recap of whats keeping me sane for the past missing months, here goes nothing :

November.. December ..

I was still addicted to rose so much I kept it in my usb so I can load it anytime, I was going out with a friend I met there and I was having a real nice time being a friend to him, he was also my friend’s ex bf.. that time I was still consoling him to wait for her and to start all over again, we go out once in a while watch movies, eat, texting here and there, everything was fun suddenly theres something more than friendship between us, it was implied in the actions, treatments, so sometime November we formalize it and I made a decision I never had given myself the chance in the last two years ..to love again ..

hira and nel0nel0 : our characters at dolphine island

first meeting, from Ayala to Moa to Pier One

Lalaine a close friend was also in Manila, allthroughout her stay in the city I was with her, she was at that time mending a broken heart. I wish I could discuss it further, but I don’t see myself fit to describe how and what happened between us , 3 of us.. we all lost a friendship rarely find..

a happy moment with a good friend Lalaine

at Mall of Asia

It was this month when I finally decided to lay low playing, RoseOnline is cool, but theres something that needs more of my time and attention now, I realized there isn’t much need for me to find temporary happiness anymore, I've let go of one of my precious accounts to a friend, deleted my very own character and I found myself saying sumthing I never would have thought of.. “Theres more fun off the PC, theres most fun in life”..

Holidays feel so much different now, its not as lonely as before.. I use to feel empty hearing xmas songs over the radio for that reason I hate malling during xmas season, there isn’t much to see but happy people all around, and songs of joy and hope and love of god which I think, I, of all people was lacking.. Special seasons use to make me feel alone, but this time there’s a difference. Once again after so many years somebody was caring how I feel and how happy I must be during this season. This time I’ve forgotten how all the past Xmases scare me (theres a reason why I'm scared of Xmas breaks of course..) Most importantly this year I learned the gift of forgiveness..

On Christmas Eve I talked to God.. and I thank him for being a very generous God.. I remember last year, I was in tears while hearing the hallelujah songs, everyone was looking for me that time, I never felt anything, no shame at all.. Last year when I talked to God, I was in so much pain that I burst in tears upon hearing a praise song, I cant help myself, I found an ally and I was telling god all those I cant tell my parents or friends, I was talking to God even if I'm exactly sure he knows what has happened, last year, for the first time again, I felt comforted in the thought that God will keep his promise and he did.. with a bonus..

When I was able to completely forgive those who hurt me, I found myself being loved by someone I never expected. It all started with some joke and a deal to pacify me being in self pity. He would always tell me that if I still am available after 4 years, that he will marry me, that I will never be alone. Of course he was kidding me. Later do I know that he meant it because we are together now. More than thankful I am bec I know God kept his promise, after all the agony, He let me find an honest, true love.

Giggly : Together

at QC Circle

after 4 months : mau and nelo in some mall near Ortigas

January.. February..

2009 started with so much challenges, but theres a lot of positive changes that welcomed me and my family. A good news for my cousins migrating to Canada, for us moving to a different house. I met a lot different people from work, I made a few but trusted friends.

I can still recall two years ago, it was Feb 6 when my ex bf took home a tiny shoe box with a puppy in it, I named that puppy Mikaela Angela, she’s more fondly called as Miki or Mikan, which are characters in anime tv series (Miki, the Girl in Soccer Anime.. Mikan the girl in Alice Academy).. so far, recently my sister is calling her MikMik..

me and miki

This is the time when I realized how much fun having a career is, being able to buy what u want, being able to see how useful the money you share in the household. Valentines was rather hectic, working for 10-12 hours at that time, 13 straight days no rest, it was inevitable, but its forgivable, its only once in a year and the influx of demands of the season..

For the first time my birthday has passed and theres nothing in the house prepared, no visitors, none at all.. but this time it was a coincidence that my Tita Tina’s despedida party will be held that same day (despedida becase again they will be moving to Canada), so after coming from work I went straight home and right there at the CDCP intersection was my father’s car waiting for me.. Today after a very long time I went in an excursion with my family from my father’s side, we went Anilao, some beach there :) .. Along the travel we passed by some spot overlooking the amazing FantasyWorld.

kuya boyet, monik, momz posing for a pic with Fantasy World at the back

Some beach in Anilao

blushy me after some Gran Matador Brandy lewls

March.. April..

There isn't so much fun on March, only a few memorable and confidential ones lawls pur pur purrr.. But im stil half way hot April so lets see what could this month have for me.. Welcome back to me!

That thing you call Age

How old are you?
I was often ask this question, i know i don't quite look my age, they said i look younger wahahah. But really, is there anything i should be conscious about my age? Im 28 so wut? atleast ppl claim i look like 22 (wahahah for the win!)..
I have never been more concerned about ageing until recently, and to be honest i nvr wished so much to be younger until last Month..
Okay, so it was my choice after all being in the middle of this dilemna. I have my way out and no one is deliberately keeping me in, but heres the catch, i chose to stay, even at the fear of wuth things may bring behind the bliss of a relationship with a generation gap.
Defining age had not been very frustrating for me since then, but, i remain hopeful and positive believing that happiness might be really on its way even if its 7 yrs behind.
Crossing my fingers ..

Play AruaRose

Yes!

PLAY my Game, I have been a long running player of one of the most stable Rose Online International Private Server, ARUAROSE..

Been there since the High Rate (Hebarn) Server opened and am still there, some people already quitted and i remain standing there.. whoa, Arua if Fun, believe me i have tried laying other servers and its just nothing compared to how Arua is.. the dedication of the Staff to improving the server is immesurable, the number of players is quite unbelievable..

Come Halloween, everyone is expecting a new patch, as it equates, new patch = better reason to play arua, new patch = new excitement.

I myself have been enjoying it, but like real life, you need to work on harder to get what you want ingame. To gain something out the available reasources ingame is one thing im good at, farming. Thats the way to make money and to get the gears you desire for your Job, by the way im a Full time Cleric.. my name game is xHiRaIa, and i belong to the Best (its overrated in know muwahahah) clan in the Server..

my aruarose character (xHiRaIa) with her leet clan: DontEvenTrip

Play AruaRose now, and see me ingame, let;s have fun, destress and meet new friends be a part of the world's most loved game, RoseOnline.

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Back

Im back :D

After a long hibernation from blogging i guess im ready to write again, been quite some time since i last wrote sumthing here and i missed it for real. A lot things happened in the past months, i dunno why i prefer to be silent and all, not my usual behavior when im extremely lonely. Well, not that i am already recovered or so, but i guess i have more than recuperated from the fact that some things in my life cant really go the way i want it to be.

There had been disputes in Arua that broke my heart, i left Rewind and joined a Pinoy clan, got more annoyed at how things were going around and of the rumors i heard, i joined DET out of nothing and immediately got invited the next day..I stopped farming and im terribly missing it so once in a while i farm charms too, check on Kera but i never farms the other Bosses, i have completed all the factions sets and sold most of them, i already earned pretty big money from being actively doing quests, running here and there waiting for shouts. I made a new cleric as per Jayt's advice, a dex cleric for that matter, unfortunately until now she reamain in 208Lvl.. i was trying to level Todd too but when the new cleric starts soloing in prison i stopped party i reserved Todd for Marsh of Ghost.

Edwin stopped farming a few days before his birthday, he left me, things have changed now, or he changed and that totally broke my heart. Everything that i am now is just what left of somebody desperately trying to forget him. And im not having a great time. And im not doing good because im still crazy missing him.
DET is fun more than i thought, but Rewind remains the best for me, i had the best of everything in Rewind, but well, it never ended well for me. DET promises better tho, nicer clanmates, Leet people from different parts of the world, Life seems easier with DET, i was a lot appreciated. The people i used to aaoid during farming is in the same house as my new cleric now. Jayt is cooler than i thought and the rest of the people more friendly than i expected.

the new hira

Im actually close to hibernation, i have sold almost all the sets, the raiders and the scout and all chrs edwin and i made are on the full stop now, i sold everything i have and left only the set for the cleric, the AAW which i treaeure so much might bne disposed off too, dunno yet but until everything is cleared then i might have to finalize my decisions when to give it up. After all i can always find a better wing should i decide to go addictus again.

ROHAN

I hated hearing this game in the first place, its the game that took my clanmates away, hmmp! But i gave a second thought, there might be sumthing in Rohan thats really nicer than what Rose have, after all, if most people in rewind loved it, why cant I? So i Dled Rohan, after 3 tries i made it 6 hours WTF but i made it finally. i spent 4 hours of a day on Rohan, i enjoyed it, i was not rushing as i want to be familiarized with it, i wont leave myself any question since im a noob in that game, I was happy with the result, its not as hard to play like Perfect World. Honestly i enjoyed it.However my friends cant play it, Edwin cant play it and i guess even if he can he wont. Lalaine too, and Myra.. So its not nice at all for me to learn that i will be leaving them in Rose alone, i Stoped Rohan at level 13, and i will continue it once Edwin, lalaine and myra decides to play too, until then, i either quit or lay low playing rose. But i kept Rohan waiting, after all its closed Beta, and things will still change once its officially turned over to market for business.

I still recommend Rohan its nice, graphics and gameplay are amazing :: www.playrohan.com

heres a pic of my avatars in Rohan :D

Ofcourse, Hiraia will continue living here <3

Accidentally Sent

I dont mean to i swear its sitting in my drafts folder for almost 2 weeks when i reopen my mails and breeze through it and boom what the heck did gmail do ? i sent it? OMFG. Honestly, after realizing the biggest mistake i did i feel like blowing my head off, i want to die, its so humiliating omg! omg! omg! omg!
Well, i stood still in composure but deep inside i wanted to drown from where im standing, then finally out of courage i txted him about my mistake. And he read it, yeah, i dunno how he reacted to that but maybe just laugh at it, i guess he wont believe it anyway.
But its true, no matter how funny and how impossible it seems to him, theres nothing in that letter but pure love and honesty..
Heres how it goes..

28 years of my life and im doing for the first time, yeah never realized that i would come to the point of writting this, but i know i have to do this for myself, anyhow much shame on me bec i know this will stay in drafts forever but somehow i just want to tell you your real position in my life..

I got no idea how to say it right, but i know it is as pointless as keeping it unsaid bec i know very well that you dont love me back. I know i should not be telling you how much you mean to me and i know then again you will equate this girl to stupidity for loving someone she dont even know in reality. It is not easy to betray your own reasoning your own liking and what your heart tells you, allthemore it is not easy to feel the silent rejection, bec its more painful than the brokenheart i had from my past relationship.

I know what you're thinking about me but let me correct something, Men, they come and go in my life and some dont even make impressions to be atleast remembered. Im not desperate and i can live without men to look after me.If you wanna learn the truth, XXXXXXX (edited) i tried to be his girlfriend, and i did, and im good at keeping my obligations. I needed him, but i did not use him to get over with Macky, maybe yes i cared for him. But between you two it was far beyond compare.

Enough defending myself as it wont change anything..

True that i dont intend to be hurt again, but im old enough at this to realize that when you love someone you give them the ultimate right to hurt you, i think thats given. For some reason i cant remember exactly when u started to hurt me err (rephrase) For some reason i cant remember exactly when i started to love you.

Im sorry Edwin bec i loved you when i should not have, bec i loved you when you were just good to me, bec i loved you when i know u cant love me back, bec i love you when you can never ever be mine. But im okay i am strong right? And bec i love you i want to hear good things from you, i want you to move on from your brokenheart, i want you to live a happy and good life. Yes, It will hurt me to know that you love someone else, but then again pain would be temporary, bec i love you i want to know that you are happy.Believe me bec its true when i say that I have never loved someone selflessly as much i do to you, not with Neil, not even with Macky.

Men come and go in my life, You will remain here, you taught me so many things i never learned from my past relationship, you never seize to amaze me with your wit, you are one of the kindest heart ive come to know,and i always look up to you, i always follow you, not bec i love you, but bec you're just one great person who deserves much respect and love more than you thought you do.

Dont think that i expect you to love me back bec i dont,im too old to live in fancy, edwin will never ever love me, and it hurts but i accepted that already. Someday my feelings will change into something, someday i will love someone else, but i wont rest till i know you are already happy, bec i will never ever get tired of caring for you Edwin.

Someday i will laugh reading this letter, maybe just smile at the taught i once loved you. When that time comes, i hope we are both contented and happy with our lives.

I love Edwin Sing Tan - Thats one thing permanently added to my lifes story. Something that will always remain a part of me.

sorry better luck next mail wahahah .. ^__^

Rewind Plsss..

Ive been in rewind for a long time now and i miss my friends so much, i have to admit Rewind is dying but me and Mina are doing the best to keep it alive, xRewind is grade 5 now, its quite an accomplishment for me as i put too much in upgrading it from 5k clanpoints up to 75k cp, was never absent a single farming day, always at command always the one deciding where to go who to kill, who to call, when to begin, where to stop, it was tiring yes, but it was fun more than all other things i have in my shoulders. Keeping both clans active is hard, and keeping the reputation is as even harder than keeping the Rewind culture alive if the masters that set the standards are away. I long to see Rewind alive and strong even after i quit but i have a hunch that if mina and i lax, rewind will surely die.
If i could turn back time, i wont miss a single war, i wont miss a single line in clanchat, for all we know whatever we have now is just sumthing fate lends us for a day and will be gone tomorrow. if only its possible, then .. Rewind pls..

Missing Julie

Its July, i can never think of anyone else when i hear this month but only one name :Julie. My bestfriend Juliza whom i lost contact with for a long time now, I miss her so much. i hope we get to catch up with whats hot and not with our lives. Julie wherever you are contact me, you know how, i mishhh u like hell..

Hey advance Happy Bday :D (july 8th) ... <3

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